Sugar and Spice, Sharp but Nice

I've been repeatedly asked to imagine what flavour I would be, and I can never come up with a satisfactory answer. Probably because flavour means food, but there's so much more to food than flavour.

Oatmeal Cinnamon Chip Cookies

I'm not a foodie snob, just someone who loves enjoying her food. There's flavour, but there's also smell, there's texture, there's temperature. All those can make a world of difference. So I decided to cheat a bit and figure out what kind of foodstuff I could be… and the choice just sprang up without me having to think about it at all.

If I identify with a food item, in a 'come back as X' way, that would have to be my mother's spice and orange cookies. They don't look like those up there in the photo; she prefers to twist the dough into little braids and shape them into sticks, crescents or rings. They are vegetarian, as there is no butter, milk or egg in the recipe; baking them would always ramp up big time during fasting periods, and the smell of cinnamon, clove and orange greeted people from the landing, without even having to open the door into the flat.

They're fluffy and comforting when eaten hot, just out of the oven, or even warm, although I've always preferred them cold, at least a couple of days old, when they feel more solid and the flavours have blended. And unlike so many other cookies that seem to be designed to be dunked in milk, these are extra yummy when dipped in orange juice, leaving some of their spiciness in the drink.

I'm not sure if I identify with them because they tick all the 'favourite foods' boxes or if I like them so much because I'm so like them, but there you have it. I'm solid, dependable, low maintenance, a generally wholesome influence; sweet but with a little core of pungency, an acquired taste. I want to believe I bring a bit of comfort, even with some crumbly rough edges, to the lives of the people I touch, and leave something of myself in them.

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Best Foot Forward

I'm not high maintenance. It only takes some skillful arrangement to meet a few basic necessities, and I'm firing on all cylinders.

Lift Off- Best Viewed Large

Being at my best, in my book, is a combination of feeling good and doing well, both of which are theoretically easy to achieve. (Practice is another story entirely.)

The most basic feel-good factor is getting enough sleep, which can be inordinately difficult. I sleep generally well, but not long enough; on days when I've been allowed to sleep in, the improvement on both my mood and performance is immediately noticeable.

After sleep, food. I can't function if I'm either hungry or weighed down. In the morning, I need to eat something substantial within half an hour of getting up, or all the coffee in the world can't keep me going. On the other extreme, I'm literally good for nothing if I'm digesting a big meal. A bite of savoury, a bite of sweet, a drink to wash it all down, and my motor is purring. That's why I love Meal Deals.

A shower and clean clothes also go a long way on the feel-good scale. If I've had a few minutes to dry-brush before showering, the effect intensifies exponentially. Same when the clothes are comfortable – a crucial factor particularly when it comes to shoes – and suited to the season. Being too hot or too cold makes for certain misery.

I'm much better in the afternoon and evening than in the morning hours. It's my internal clock that works this way. Granted, a lot of my morning grouchiness is due to sleep deprivation, but by no means all of it. My ideal weather is cool and moderately sunny – no wonder autumn is my favourite season.

To complete my happiness, some alone time with the chance to read every day is just the thing. I used to put my daily train commute to such use; I was a much better person to work with if I'd had my daily read first.

So, in recap: rested, full, clean, comfortable, up to my intellectual speed – that's when I'm at my best, a rare and wonderful sight. Isn't learning to function optimally in less than optimal conditions what life is all about?

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Musical Growth

When I was younger, I thought that old (well, older) people were stuck to the music that was popular in their youth, unable to evolve and appreciate newer stuff, and I dreaded ending up like them. Now I know I needn't have worried.

Kid rocks: Concert draws thousands – FMWRC – US Army – 100916

My parents, however, were exactly that kind. They were fond of rembetika and Greek folk music, neither of which I could ever relate to, then or now. That's why I generally dislike Greek popular music, instead staying firmly in the international realm. It was only as an adult that I explored the arty side of Greek music; even a giant of a successful composer like Manos Hatzidakis had never entered my family home.

I grew up listening to the radio and whatever was popular at the time. The first band I remember identifying and enjoying was ABBA, back in my preschool years. Most of the 70s hits that hit the airwaves then are well forgotten by now, and although I've tried to delve into the decade, it never quite caught on. I was given a dinky little record player on my 9th birthday, together with a single record, Diana Ross' Diana. It was my own very first record, and I listened to it a lot for a few years. Eventually I moved from records to cassette tapes and it was left behind, but I still consider it a very fine album, with hardly a duff track on it, and now that I've raked up the memory, I need to see about buying it on CD.

Control over my musical tastes came with my first radio-cassette player, in 1984. Most of the cassettes I bought at the time were compilations, while I was fumbling around with genres, developing my inclinations. The first individual album I bought was Duran Duran's Arena, and shortly afterwards a friend bought me Wham's Make It Big, in good-natured spirit of the big clash going on at the time. Both of those albums were loved a lot and listened to often, though Duran Duran were by far my favourite band – I also bought Notorious, a couple of years later, while I never bothered with another Wham release. Madonna's Like a Virgin and True Blue had long hours playing at home, as well, and occasionally still do.

The turning point came in 1987, when Whitesnake brought out their eponymous runaway success. I had been gravitating towards rockier sounds already, and the particular album sealed the deal. I listened to it until the tape deteriorated, then bought the CD, and almost everything else Whitesnake have recorded. I moved firmly into the guitar camp, and the hair metal years were some of the happiest of my life, musically speaking.

My family hoped it would just be a phase, of course. Sure enough, my interest waned with the rise of 'extreme metal' at the turn of the 90s. I took a break, explored classical and world music… and came back when the progressive branch of metal sound gathered momentum again, followed by the surge of symphonic metal, especially the female-fronted kind. I felt vindicated, after having lived and suffered through the years when the prevalent view was that women can't play metal, and most are not even suitable for listening to it. Take this, male chauvinists!

Most of the music I listen to now was created in the 21st century, but the seeds were sown back in the decade of excess. I no longer own a cassette player, and my cassettes themselves have long fallen prey to time, but the perspective is invaluable. Especially since I no longer consider rock to be exclusively the purview of youthful energy. Most of the bands I follow are pushing 40 and have been around for a couple of decades at least. A bit like myself, really.

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Like a Sore Thumb

A fascinating expression that suggests what more of us should know: standing out is not always a good thing.

Stand-out

When I moved to the UK, I really stood out in a number of ways that I couldn't help, and which could have been all the wrong ones, if some circumstances had been different.

I would hardly open my mouth, and someone would ask where I was from. (Some followed up with a bit of the third degree about why I was here, and I couldn't, in good conscience, say 'none of your bloody business' to a stranger, especially an otherwise harmless-looking old lady.) Phone conversations terrified me, for the same reason – I hadn't been exposed to dreadful call centre accents yet. And I don't want to think about the treatment my accent could have earned me, if we were in the wrong kind of neighbourhood – one of high nationalistic ideas, that would be.

Exposure and practice have smoothed my rough edges in the years since, but my accent is not completely gone and never will. I'm rather glad of that. I don't get the origin question too much lately, but I'm rather proud of being obviously a foreigner whose English is better than many native speakers'. That is more obvious in writing, but it happens even when I speak; solid grammar and a good vocabulary can't hide. That's most definitely a way I'm glad to stand out in.

Otherwise, I'm still quite the exotic import. Not as much in terms of looks; there are plenty of people around with Mediterranean colouring and figures, natives and otherwise. It's not an exceptionally multicultural bit of the country, but there are enough Asians and Africans around for no batting eyelids. Though I'm still likely to be the one who talks and laughs a bit too loudly, the one who gesticulates a lot, the one who has no qualms about eating and drinking in public (though the natives are improving in that respect, and I'm so glad).

I'm also the one most likely to go around in a fleece jacket when everyone else is in tank tops, but I can't do much about my tolerance for cold!

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Pay Me to Do What?

Hobbying for a living? Maybe, maybe not.

I’ve heard a lot of horror stories about people getting to do their absolutely favouritest thing in the whole world for a living and finding out that it no longer is as much fun any more – not when it involves, like any other job, deadlines, dealing with the tax offices, collaborating with others of different mindsets or simply being unable to take a break.

That’s why I don’t think I’d want to write for a living, much as I love writing. To clarify: I’d love to be able to sell my writing well enough to live on the proceeds, but turning out creative writing or research on a deadline? That would kill my fickle muse deader than a doornail. I tried to get a journalism scholarship once; the trial involved simulating the task of a rewriter in a busy newsroom. I’ve come to be glad that I didn’t get it.

I wouldn’t want to dance for a living either – I’m insecure enough about money as it is, I don’t need the constant worry about when I’d land another gig. Teaching yoga is fine as a volunteering activity, as well, but I don’t think I’d want the issues with other people’s injuries that could get blamed on me, nor the inability to take a break if I was injured myself.

All this doesn’t mean I consider myself cursed to spend my life doing something I don’t really care about, just for the paycheck. There are plenty of jobs having to do with books, after all, that are so congenial that I’d feel vaguely guilty getting paid for them. None of them would make me a fortune, but all would be time well spent.

Selling books. Why not? Retail hours can be brutal, but… I used to pray so hard for an opening at our local independent bookstore. I could very happily sit in their vault-like basement, with all the fantasy books and the new age paraphernalia, till the cows come home. I’d have no trouble smiling to customers, because every person who comes in and buys a book is a kindred spirit. Reading at work, promoting literary events (NaNoWriMo!), being the first to know what’s coming out, getting to meet authors I devour and walking away with my own autographed copies. Bliss.

Librarian. No, nothing to do with the sexy librarian stereotype, and none of your business whether I can carry it or not. I don’t mind learning Dewey and rearranging shelves, as long as I get a quiet environment that allows me – you guessed it – to read and write on the job. And rifle the clearout bins for freebies, too.

The publishing business is where I want to end up, eventually. Proofreading and copy-editing are right up my alley, indulging both my meticulous and my creative sides. Letting me influence what a finished book will look like. Getting me credited for being involved with a book’s creation, even if I’m not the actual author.

Book reviewing is the one area of journalism that I wouldn’t mind ending up in. Getting paid to read (free) books, and my opinion being read and considered. What a boost to the ego that would be.

So ‘scuse me while I go pick up my proofreading course again. Gotta be as ready as possible by the time the young master is old enough for school and frees me to seek gainful employment again.

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