That Fickle Muse

NaNoWriMo is officially over. I hit 50K words earlier today, but I'm taking the last couple of days to push on to the end of my story, which is in sight.

NaNoWriMo Day 3

My muse has been incredibly accommodating this year. It's the first time, after one failure and three wins, that I've been consistently ahead of schedule and never had to pull a desperate 5K day towards the end.

But then my muse is happy when he has work. When I write, he rides me harder than any mundane influence, lover or employer, ever has. When I'm not, he puts on his best urbane-looking Victorian Hellfire club face and never tires in his attempts to seduce me into following him. (He has some pretty creative punishments up his sleeve if I resist too long, as well… but that's another story for another day.)

Not to say that my muse doesn't have his blind spots as well. He's not good with plot, at least original plot seeds, while he's brilliant with characters and settings. All my plots are, at least in the beginning, hopelessly, or rather shamelessly, derivative: I pick a story I've read and redo it. Thing is, though, most of my fiction is collaborative, and the other person's input is invaluable in making our story veer far from the canon. So far, in fact, that sometimes we lose track of the original altogether.

Most of what I know about the craft of writing comes from Marion Zimmer Bradley and the liberal pearls of wisdom she included in the anthologies she edited. It's all in the characters for me. I don't do fanfiction, though I may slip a canon character as an NPC here and there, if the setting warrants it. Starting with real people, things are bound to happen, and sometimes working in an established but unfamiliar universe can be dizzyingly inspirational. A writing partner introduced me to the world of A Song of Ice and Fire, months before I got to start reading the series; one of the challenges I relished most was crafting a Darkover story with another partner who had never read Darkover. Right now I'm negotiating a story that will explore what Beatrice Rappaccini might have grown into, and I'm fairly giddy with stampeding ideas.

It might be my speculative bent, but I don't tend to find sparks of inspiration in real life around me; not in events or people I experience, though some nature can get me into just the right mood to be receptive. It's inspired art that inspires me in turn – particularly words and music. I've lost count of how many times a song title has sprung up and demanded to be a story title as well.

Unlike other years, when I end NaNoWriMo with a desperate need to decompress by writing nothing for weeks, now I'm ready to dive back into my stories and reward my co-writers' patience. If that's not creative inspiration, I wouldn't know what is.

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Year End To-Do's

Perhaps setting a close deadline works better than new year resolutions.

Things to do today

I've already struck the unfeasible items off the list (read The Wheel of Time in six weeks? yeah, right), so this is only what depends solely on myself and circumstances as they are right now for its accomplishment.

1. Get myself accustomed to a daily schedule involving more sleep and exercise. With husband's new job, I have to get up earlier and shoulder more tasks during the day, so I need to rake up more energy and keep the winter blues at bay.

2. Finish the book series I've put on hold for NaNoWriMo (Cate Tiernan's Sweep). Five instalments are down, 10 remain to go. Each one is a couple of hours' worth of reading, so it may seem like a light task. It is, as long as I manage to make the time, which can be trickier than it seems, especially on full-blown work days.

3. Bring my paperwork up to date. My passport will expire in January, and my identity card is still of the kind that started to be replaced a decade ago. Unless something goes terribly wrong, we will be going back to Greece for Christmas, and I will have both taken care of while we're there, saving myself trips to London and dealings with the embassy.

4. Buy myself at least a couple of smart garments. I've grown too comfortable with the 'mum uniform' of yoga pants, t-shirts and sneakers; I need to reacquaint myself with smart clothes (especially slacks – that's going to be hard) and heels, in anticipation of working opportunities.

5. Take the little one to at least one Christmas event. Probably the arrival of Father Christmas at the local zoo, in a sleigh pulled by real live reindeer.

6. Be happier, for myself and in myself.

That's it, I guess. A short list, fully achieved, would do much better things for my self-confidence than having to work out success percentages.

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Movie Time: The Indispensables

This list is not complete or definitive, and does not aim to be so. It is just a series of notes on some of my favourite films that, regardless of masterpiece or howler 'official review' status, are still worth the time they take to watch. In no particular order.

Pile of DVDs

The Lord of the Rings trilogy. Extended edition, if at all possible. Essentially a single 12-hour movie, an epic visualisation of Tolkien's masterpiece, it's in a class all of its own: the was-supposed-to-be-impossible one. The fact that it resurrected Christopher Lee's career in his 80s is a bonus.

The Matrix (only the first one; the two sequels are extensions built on that the story needs only as much as an able-bodied person would need prosthetic limbs). Science fiction, thriller, martial arts and the nature of reality. RPG fans, especially Mage players like myself, will find debate material to last them years.

Dead Poets Society. What starts like another high school story with a retro feeling, soon evolves into a bittersweet exploration of the self, one's awareness of it, choices and responsibility. I was 17 when it came out, and it resonated deeply, but even more than 20 years later, it still has the power to make me (and others) choke up, if not outright cry.

Bram Stoker's Dracula. Not Coppola's greatest masterpiece, not the most faithful adaptation of Stoker's novel, but still a lush, sexy, visually stunning experience of a movie, with Gary Oldman at its very insurmountable best.

The Three Musketeers. I'm talking about the 1993 adaptation. Inaccurate enough to make anyone who's read the book cry (it's Disney, people! get over it!), but once disbelief is suspended, it's a rollercoaster of an adventure, superbly cast all around, with an exhilarating music score and some hilarious anachronisms, among generally hilarious lines.

Platoon. War movies often try to press their point by overdoing the atrocity factor. This one is almost subdued by comparison. The viewpoint character (Charlie Sheen's first and arguably best leading role) is an idealistic newcomer who lets us watch his innocence demolished piecemeal. Necessary viewing even for the squeamish – or especially for the squeamish.

Make sure you don't run out of popcorn, pizza and drinks, settle down, and enjoy!

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A Little Deep Reading

I love finding books to recommend, and that doesn’t happen half as often as I’d like.

I should have written this five years ago. That’s when I bought 366 Celt by Carl McColman. It was at the Past Times outlet store in Freeport; the promise of insight into Celtic culture and lore, combined with the art deco-style cover, convinced me easily to fork out a fiver for it. I leafed through it and blogged about my acquisition on my very first blog, on the now-defunct Yahoo360, and the following day I woke up to a comment from the author himself! I think that was when it started dawning on me that online networking had power.

The book came with me when I moved to the UK for good, but first one reason and then another kept me from actually reading it. I kept following the author, though, first on his Y360 blog and then on his site (anamchara.com), especially after I settled here on WordPress myself.

The time to actually sit down (actually, lie down, in my personal reading habits) and digest the book itself came this past September. Its 366 pages went very fast, probably because each unit – I wouldn’t call them meditations, as they’re between reflection prompts and encyclopedia entries – fits on one page and can be absorbed swiftly, allowing the reader to move to the next without gaps, as well as to read up to the last available moment, without risking having to stop mid-section.

The 366 entries are organised into 40 ‘paths’ of uneven length; most have 9 entries each, some have fewer, and then there’s the Path of the Ogham, with a whopping 21 entries. I found myself reading four to six paths a day, and was done with the entire book within a week.

The paths deal with aspects of the Celtic microcosm as well as macrocosm. They cover peculiarities of the Celtic character and understanding of the world, keeping to more general, ‘umbrella’ points rather than delving too far into particular Celtic branches (although, in practice, most of the lore collected comes from Ireland, with the Welsh element a distant second), as well as history, mythology and spirituality, both of the Pagan and Christian flavours.

I don’t have any Celtic ties myself, whether by blood, family or location, but the view presented in that book fascinated me – even made me a bit jealous of the community spirit that Celtic ancestry generates in modern people with nothing else in common. It was written before McColman reverted from Paganism back to Roman Catholicism, but there are no attempts at reconstructionism. It’s a balanced account that will hold plenty of interest for the Celtic enthusiast, whichever side of the hill they’re climbing. I can’t recommend it enthusiastically enough.

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Pay Me to Do What?

Hobbying for a living? Maybe, maybe not.

I’ve heard a lot of horror stories about people getting to do their absolutely favouritest thing in the whole world for a living and finding out that it no longer is as much fun any more – not when it involves, like any other job, deadlines, dealing with the tax offices, collaborating with others of different mindsets or simply being unable to take a break.

That’s why I don’t think I’d want to write for a living, much as I love writing. To clarify: I’d love to be able to sell my writing well enough to live on the proceeds, but turning out creative writing or research on a deadline? That would kill my fickle muse deader than a doornail. I tried to get a journalism scholarship once; the trial involved simulating the task of a rewriter in a busy newsroom. I’ve come to be glad that I didn’t get it.

I wouldn’t want to dance for a living either – I’m insecure enough about money as it is, I don’t need the constant worry about when I’d land another gig. Teaching yoga is fine as a volunteering activity, as well, but I don’t think I’d want the issues with other people’s injuries that could get blamed on me, nor the inability to take a break if I was injured myself.

All this doesn’t mean I consider myself cursed to spend my life doing something I don’t really care about, just for the paycheck. There are plenty of jobs having to do with books, after all, that are so congenial that I’d feel vaguely guilty getting paid for them. None of them would make me a fortune, but all would be time well spent.

Selling books. Why not? Retail hours can be brutal, but… I used to pray so hard for an opening at our local independent bookstore. I could very happily sit in their vault-like basement, with all the fantasy books and the new age paraphernalia, till the cows come home. I’d have no trouble smiling to customers, because every person who comes in and buys a book is a kindred spirit. Reading at work, promoting literary events (NaNoWriMo!), being the first to know what’s coming out, getting to meet authors I devour and walking away with my own autographed copies. Bliss.

Librarian. No, nothing to do with the sexy librarian stereotype, and none of your business whether I can carry it or not. I don’t mind learning Dewey and rearranging shelves, as long as I get a quiet environment that allows me – you guessed it – to read and write on the job. And rifle the clearout bins for freebies, too.

The publishing business is where I want to end up, eventually. Proofreading and copy-editing are right up my alley, indulging both my meticulous and my creative sides. Letting me influence what a finished book will look like. Getting me credited for being involved with a book’s creation, even if I’m not the actual author.

Book reviewing is the one area of journalism that I wouldn’t mind ending up in. Getting paid to read (free) books, and my opinion being read and considered. What a boost to the ego that would be.

So ‘scuse me while I go pick up my proofreading course again. Gotta be as ready as possible by the time the young master is old enough for school and frees me to seek gainful employment again.

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